WeThe Sins Of The Fathers Come For The Daughters.
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Keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear the guilty; visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children’s children, unto the third and to the fourth generation.
Exodus 34:7 KJV.
I can’t help but notice how we try to justify our behaviour by telling stories o our history to set wheels in motion for present action.
I think Jane is trying to link me with her father Glen to justify her abandoning me as a way of getting back at her father who abandoned her as i am about the same age as Glen. it makes for fertile ground to justify her present actions.
The sins of the father truly become become of the daughter !
The skies the limit when it come to the lies we tell ourselves.
Jane never used my age of 55 to her 25 as a means to attack me with , but did mention it a number of times as we talked about various things in each of our lives that we had in common and not.
I can see how she would use this as a way to push me out of her life. for one to do such things , a new narrative has to be created so she can reenter the world around her to keep the shifting sands of sanity from collapsing — a breath would knock down this house of cards !
When lead by the double delusion of secular humanism and gender ideology , you get the ultimate in mental fragility !
No wonder they break under the simplest of questioning !
This is how we know we have reached peak generational weakness !
The woke mob can be broken with the Power of Honesty !
Jane and i bonded very well with our mutual family struggles — a lot of pain and strife we bonded with that tears an closeness did bring healing.
That was beautiful.
When connection comes through pain , a powerful sense is born. as the soul is opened , Love comes in.
It takes a hell of a Monster to Destroy this !
And that would be Gender Ideology .. what a horrible creature.
I can see how this monster came after me as i challenged it and took it on. i knew that there is something different about the millennials as they all said and did the same things in mindset — like being in a collective.
It weirded me out !
They are the Bob Roberts of generations ! (“Winning was everything. The self-promotion spawned by the aggressive new M.B.A. programs made business into a new kind of jungle — one where the animals ate even when they weren’t hungry.” Taken from Roger Ebert.com) Raging for the machine while thinking they are raging against it — now that’s good brainwashing ! In the film , the character is a total fraud as politicians are — to serve the ends to their means. with the millennials , they are useful idiots of the new empire — empowering those of a generation to do the dirty work of those in power who have set the program that used to be education is now indoctrination that is making a generation into the hidden politician.
You can always be a Populist when you are Lying !
Kelsii’s mother Tracy was a pretty terrible mother with poor Jane .. running away , suicide attempts , getting into abusive relationships and family abandoning or killing themselves — it really has been too much of a life for someone soo young …
I think the reason for the cursing of generations is when the parents don’t tell the truth to their children and all they have is the lies of their lives to fall into !
That is why my beloved Jane hates me and not them. so , Tracy and Glen are fine , and i am not.
I did what her parents should have done — truly not very good parents !
The only way to break the curse is to tell the truth. if Tracy and Glen had done the right thing , Jane would have seen what i did and have done the spiritual work and we would have been richer in relationship for it.
Instead , the world that is now trapped in lies as a life repeats the same cycle as her parents .. Jane becomes them.
I know in my life i have tried to not repeat the same cycle as to what i know and saw with my parents .. and i am proud to say i have not repeated the same cycles to become them. that doesn’t mean i am in the best state of myself , as Jane herself pointed out and i admit , i to need to change those things about having financial standing as i really do want to be the man that takes care of his woman and provide her with a good life as nature demands of us men. i did feel bad every time Jane would pay for a meal or just support me when i was low on cash as i have been on the welfare dime for more than a decade .. i should be on disability after four plus years of being together , i should have made that happen or gotten the mental health to get a job .. i do regret that i didn’t take core of those things as one of the last acts of genuine emotion she gave me she told me off about that and even went so far as to tell me the new guy she had in her life had a job and a car as to take a shot at me for my failures of getting my life together.
Considering all of her struggles and pain from a life lived too hard by no truth being spoken or acted upon , she shouldn’t be working with that much weight on Jane’s poor shoulders .. i needed to pick up at least a few pieces in my life to make that possible for her .. i’m sorry Jane …
I hope when i get my life together she will give me another chance .. we really were good for each other and we both became better people in this relationship. it wasn’t perfect , but it looks like the best either of us will ever do.
I once said “Love is expensive.” and i think that is true in more than just a material sense , it demands a lot in flesh and blood and in Spirit.
I hope and pray that there is still time for us .. i don’t think Love is done with us.
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December 5th/2024.
